9/25: no guarantees

make-goods.  

part of my job is to "make" a commercial that fell out of one week of cable tv "good" in another week.

hence the concept, make-good. simply put, a make-good saves money that was lost. it can depend on outside factors: rating points, sports, dollars, games, etc- but overall, someone/something screwed up...and you need to figure out how fix it.

sure, its a simple concept- but then again, nothings really ever that simple.

its common knowledge that you will eventually lose a company money. nothing scary, its just there are no guarantees that a spot will run on cable (okay).

the worst part about it- its unpredictable. you never know whats going to fall out or where your going to be able to make it good.  

so whats my point?

work concepts aside- i was once told that if you take what you learn and apply it to your everyday life, you will have a greater understanding of everything around you.  

go figure- isn't that what every philosophy teacher says?

but really, there are a lot of things you just make-good. sometimes you don't even realize it. 

it can be an argument with a friend or family member, learning from your mistakes or anything really. at the end of the day, it usually is just you making a bad situation good.

...but what if you can't make things good?

i like to take chances. but taking chances, usually have unpredictable outcomes. recent events have led me to believe that- no matter how hard you try to make things good, it doesn't depend on you.

in the cable world, whether or not a spot runs as a result of your make-good depends on other mediums moving from one process to the next. the real world just happens to depend on those other mediums as well.

in the real world, a make-good is a choice. choose to make it good, or just file it away.

putting yourself out there, taking the blame, sticking up for what you think, knowing your limits- all those things are chances you take with unpredictable outcomes. but you try your best to make-good what happens. at the end of the day, don't you want good things? whether or not it works out in the long run...well that's out of your control.

no guarantees.

at least in cable if something truly needs to be filed away, you know that you couldn't make it good because the week ended.

real world scenarios...well, sometimes you just wait it out and see what happens. the good thing- you didn't just file it away.  

if you tried- maybe it will be made-good.

either way, time will tell. you just have to wait to see what ran and what fell out.

no guarantees. that's it.  

9/24: the inbetween

today is a monday.

there is nothing worse than a monday morning. to me, its basically as if everything ive either accomplished, regretted, messed up, had to deal with, who ive met, been with, and what i needed to have done over the weekend- is just over with...because when monday morning hits, BOOM- your warped into the reality that is work.

for the last 2.5 months i have walked into work and sat in a secluded cube. honestly- i got to say, there is nothing worse than starting off after college and having all you wanted be restricted to everything you didn't want. living with your parents, having everyone you've grown to love from school gone, and of course sitting in a cube working sales (yes, exactly what i didn't want).

i listen to everyone here in their 30s talk about their 30s lifestyle and it makes me wonder- is this really it? go to work, come home, do it again and maybe talk about what was on TV last night? fuck, i need a little more excitement in life than that. i guess there are those life milestones (living on your own, making your own money, getting married, having kids, retirement all that..) but what about the inbetween of those milestones?

it's something you don't think about.

as of today i realize- the inbetween is full of some unknown. i can think about all those regrets, questions, accomplishments, fuck-ups, moments of indecision, people ive met, and everything else about my weekends and still i cannot comprehend what it is to be in the inbetween.

the inbetween. its something you just come to terms with. its being stuck, but with some form of movement.

-im not even saying its being stuck in a bad way, its just trying to figure out what you have been given, what you have right now, and what your going to do with it. that's exciting! its exciting in the way that you really do never know where your going to end up. even though you have that- there is so much unknown that its scary.

today, no matter where im stuck- its something that i have to do to move from one inbetween to the next.

its one of those instances where everyday we put up with the realities that life throws our way, but we deal. deal and move on. its a hard thing to accomplish and accept, but that's where you really do figure things out. its where your milestones are achieved.

and if its one thing that i learned today; move slowly and with great intent if you feel strongly about something. and im pretty confident that my inbetween will be worth something. my inbetween is the thrill of the unknown.

as for today, that is it.